ADD and Me

OK kids. Uncle Ed is going to get really raw here. If you're offended by stuff that's beyond PG-13, it's 2:38AM and wayyyyyyy past your bedtime. I know it's past mine, but I'm infuriated by the injustices bestowed upon me. My beast mode done got activated and it ain't gone be stopping for NOBODY. Yes, my beast mode is ghetto too. I grew up in NoHo, California. Deal wit' it.

So. This is the THIRD time in the past month and an indescribable amount of times that I'm having a REAL problem with people making assumptions about me (which the last incident cost me a huge fucking fortune), and I'm getting über-sick of this decrepit bullshit of being told I make excuses, I'm lazy or irresponsible. Whatever the fuck you shit-talkers like to say about me.

Let me make one thing CRYSTAL clear. If you motivate me, I'll be the strongest ally you'll ever have; I'll take a bullet for your sorry ass if I'm happy enough. If you treat me like shit, make something feel like a chore, or even micromanage me, that's where you and I are going to have a REALLY big fucking problem.

Guess what? I know that sounds anybody with a right sense of mind who reads this page can relate (if not, are you from fuckin' North Korea and cried real tears when Kim Jong Il died, while you're eating tree bark to survive even after you have escaped and have more than enough money to get food?), but I hate to have a superiority complex or... Wait for it... "Another excuse up my sleeve"!!!!!

...But I have A.D.D. and every fuckin' sign of it. I may not be the "bouncing all over the walls" type since I often don't have the energy due to being overweight and all, but you get the picture.

• Often having difficulty concentrating on conversations? Umm... What was that again? I mean, check.
• Use more words than I need to? Thus, I shall mark upon the proverbial paper with a checkmark.
• Having trouble finishing projects that have already been started? Umm... I have 3 screenplays that I have created in 2010 that I have yet to revisit, and a graphic design project someone asked me for back in February that I've been meaning to do. What do you think?
• Self-esteem issues, verbal communication issues that makes it borderline impossible for me to find a girlfriend at age 27? Check and [sob sob sniff sniff] check.

Most importantly, what have you been doing lately?

• I was asked to make calls all day, every day with a quota in mind. I'll open 9gag, Gizmodo, HugeLOL, Facebook, Twitter (and I haven't officially used that in months), Wikipedia, and finally, I reluctantly pick up the phone.
• I wanted to get into personal development. Not even I'm sure how the hell I wound up doing it, but instead of listening to Jim Rohn, I'm blaring Armin Van Buuren through Ultra Music Festival internet radio.
• What usually takes a dedicated person 8 hours, it took me almost 2.5 days to finish the Batman trilogy that I've been always meaning to watch, and it all started with me randomly remembering what a mentor said about "Batman showing his true battle scars", which was a metaphor for having perseverance and being thick-skinned in the face of adversary, and no other real reason (the memes I'd see a lot had almost nothing to do with it).

I've been taught how to recognize the alphabet before I can talk. I can read at a 6th grade level entering 1st grade, which has manifested itself in the form of being able to spell 95% of words thrown at me; I can spell words like antidisestablishmentarianism, bourgeois or apocryphal without triggering the spell-checker (yet can barely pronounce the latter word). I was thrown into a specialty school for not being a dumb shit, I just knew too much and the "Hickville" teachers of Sonoma County didn't know what the hell to do with me.

So, before you call me names, think back to this post. We clear? Alright, going to bed now... Still pissed, but feeling MUCH better now that this is off my chest.